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Can you say "WOW" ???

Ps. I'm so unmotivated...unfocused...just not feeling anything that has to do with school right now...I just want to be done, I've had it.

Shirin Neshat

Ok, so in my art history class, I got really inspired today. Like...really. Jan, this is mainly for you, but Shirin Neshat's work is beautiful. I really was inspired by it today. Not only does she do these photographs, but she also makes video, so of course I was attracted to her work. It made me think that maybe this is the kind of thing we should do if we can get our Christmas photo's hung up. Like, maybe we have on each picture, text that's done by hand ontop of the photo's. I was thinking, depending on what pictures we use, that say on one with Keenan in it, we have her describe the feeling of what Mary was feeling at that moment when the picture was taken. Very abstract, not literal, but makes the viewer really think about it. So, keenan could either write it herself, or I could, but it would be the same looking handwriting for each character. How do you feel about that? And really, anyone else's opinion's are greatly appreciated!

And this is how it happened.

This morning marked a historical moment in my life. I will never forget it. And I can't speak for everyone this morning, I can only share my view, how I experienced it. 

Just about 5 months ago my world was a mess. I was in an awful place and I had just got out of something that was so unhealthy and horrible. I knew that since I was probably at my lowest, I couldn't do anything but decide to go up. And so I replaced the old bad stuff, with some good new stuff.  

I basically decided to jump into a new project in dance. I hadn't danced with my girls in a very long time, and I missed it dearly. So, a few of us met and started searching for songs. The only direction we had to go with was what Grubby had been talking about since school ended for me. Favor. I'm sure we all know this by heart now..."In a season of favor, ask for favor, and the time of favor is now." It took us two or three meetings until the last song we listened to was "Rain Down" by Delirious. It clicked. It was exactly what we were looking for! Holy fire...rain down favor...I mean, it just made sense to all of us. Practices started soon after. Bekah and I mapped out and outlined what the dance would look like. I thought "Hey, what if we used sticks in this dance somewhere?" "What if we had a bunch of people worship with us at the end?"

And of course, complications will arise when you ask for a large amount of people, but we thought it would be cool, and it wouldn't hurt to ask. So, lots of planning preparation, choreography, practicing, asking people to join us, speaking to church secretaries, associate pastors, and ironing out many many details began.

This is where this starts to get cool. I can't remember them all, but God started showing me there was significance in rain. He spoke to me through it. That made me think that this dance was really important to Him. I started getting more and more excited, and felt like this was going to coincide with what we all were seeing as to be a shift in the atmosphere and really in the way old things were going to be gone. So, I decided I would have people pray over this. 

Then at practice a few weeks ago, we were working on the part where we would bring in our worshippers at the end. And as I stood there and watched, God said to me "You really think it's just cool that these people are going to worship with you at the end? Nooooooooooooo. There is MUCH significance in what I brought them here for, you have NO idea. THEY are ushering in the presence of the HS and bring in Heaven with them." And I went..."oooooooohhhhhhhhhh."

Then one of the ladies who was praying for this dance approached me one Sunday morning to pray over me and the dance and to give a vision/word she got one night while she was praying. She told me that she saw a tornado. And in that tornado were strands of DNA that were coming down from the sky in the center of this tornado. And she as like, ok God, that's cool, what does this mean? And He told her that the DNA of Heaven was going to fall that morning when we danced. 

Wow. Was that not awesome? Wait...that's right on with what God told me! Woo-hoo! This is going to be great!

Everything came together. God brought the people. He worked everything out. I could feel His presence SO strongly during rehearsal the day before, and definitely the morning of, AND when we all prayed together. We almost had to give Ali the mic to lead worship while Vickie almost fell on the floor. Thanks to Cara, who caught her cup of coffee, there was no spill :-)

And then we did it. It was like my baby. Not to say I did all of the work, we all worked so very hard and I am so appreciative to everyone who helped in any way at all. This was just something that I looked at this morning....from where I was, and to where God brought me, equals SO FAR! 

All of the hard work, dedication and love that was put into that finally happened. And it was nothing like I had ever even comprehended would happen. It was mind blowing, goosebumping, knock your socks off morning. I mean, after it was over, worship was insane. I've never experienced anything like this in my entire life. It was like Heaven came to earth. We were in the throne room. The angels were singing and worshipping with us, and the atmosphere completely shifted. I was happy. So joyous. I've never felt this way in my entire life. And I now know what the repercussions of obedience can do. It is quite simply amazing. I'm so excited to see what's to come, because I know this is just a TASTE of what's to come! I'm asking for more, every single day.

Oh, and to everyone I told that big things were gonna happen this summer/year...

TOLD YA SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (insert Winnie Banov laugh here...)

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This is brilliant and beautiful.

And the angels woke up...

So...to sum it up...God has been doing some amazing, big things. Shifts are happening. Hearts are turning. Healing is happening. I can finally say, I believe that history is being made today, and I get to be a part of it. You know, I was kinda upset that I wasn't able to go an event that was planned carefully to usher in the next strategic move of the Spirit, and I heard some pretty good things happened, but there weren't any huge angels that sat up from the ground. I was told by someone special that she truly believes that God is waiting for me, He knows how badly I want to see His kingdom come from heaven and to actually see the atmosphere change, and He's waiting for me, He'll allow me to see it happen. I'm so excited. Never have I been so excited to be alive and to be a part of what God is doing. And I can see it! It's what I'm living for. He's worth every breath I have, and every waking moment is lived for Him. GAHHH!!! I love this, I love Him!

So, with that being said, as an update, I'm sure more things are to come. The creativity in me is at an all time high, and He's the one who's inspired me. I'm so excited for this next move to happen and to bring new ideas and creativity to the table! So...look for that...I've already started to do video announcements, I know there's more to come.

Also...I'm keeping this blogger for personal stuff, writing and such, and then I'll be posting most of my creative outlet on here:

http://fergusthebrave.tumblr.com/

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 

- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Get ready guys, something HUGE is not only going to happen, it's already started!

I had lost all dreams of unwritten things

...until this summer...

God gave me a vision of my destiny, of his promise. of my purpose and where my identity lies...

At the end of an awful spring semester, I came to a dead end. It wasn't even a choice of continuing the way I was living or to make a turn around. It was just that I had to change everything that I was doing. I made the choice to seek God with my entire heart and being this summer. I also made a list of things that I wanted him to restore. 

*I asked Him to restore my dreams, to give me a vision and hope for my purpose. 

*I asked to be romanced by Him

*I asked Him to teach me to lean and understand the way that God speaks with me.

*I also asked Him to teach me how to listen, how to spend time with Him. 

*I asked Him to show me ways that I can use the skills and talents that He's given me , to use them for HIs Kingdom

*And I also asked for healing in many areas of my life

I let God do what He needed to do in my life this summer. It hurt just about all the time, but I knew it needed to happen. And now, as the end of summer approaches, I can see every single way He answered me.

*Not only did He restore my dreams, visions, and desires, he multiplied them with more than I could even handle!

*I felt His love in a new way, never before have I experienced this kind of love, and I've found a new joy in my heart. He shows me everyday how much He loves me, and I know that I can't even comprehend it all yet!

*I'm still learning the way He speaks to me, but I'm hearing Him more clearly than ever before.

*I've learned what it means to rest in Him, to spend time with Him and soak in His presence, and it is the most satisfying thing I've ever tasted.

*I was asked at the beginning of the summer to start producing video announcements for the church. I had no experience, and just decided I would give it a try, and it's been a joy and a blessing to be a part of it. 

*Healing. It's a really long process, and takes a lot of time. I know I've seen areas of healing in my life already, but I know that He's not finished yet, and I am perfectly fine with that. He knows what He's doing, and I trust Him, more than anything else in the world.

Transformation is like healing, and it's just as important. The only thing we can do is be humbled and submit ourselves to what God needs to do. I have never felt this way in my entire life. I get up thinking about God. I go to work thinking about God. I do things, thinking about God, looking forward to spending time with Him when I get home. He gave me courage. He encouraged me, loved on me, and became my everything. I have found a love, that lights up every room....and it is so amazing. My eyes are fixed on Him, and will continue to be. He's about to do something really big, something so exciting, and I'm honored to be a part of it. And NO one, not the enemy, not any man, can take that away.

I was born for such a time as this!