Eternaphobia?

There's a thought that creeps into the back of my head every now and then. It's a thought that I don't like to entertain. I usually think about it until that I get that feeling. You know when you're on a roller coaster and you drop? It's kind of like that only worse. I've never understood the feeling, I've never understood why this thought freaks me out as much as it does to the point where I just don't think about it anymore.

Let me explain something before I explain my little uneasiness. I know with all of my heart, that because I accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior, and made Him King of my life, that I am headed home after my final breath. I cannot wait for that. I'm very truly excited for that day. I'm looking forward to it. Here's the clincher.

Eternity. No end. Never ending. Forever. And ever. Amen.

When I think about the fact that after this life on earth, I will be somewhere else forever, with no end, freaks me out like nothing else. No end? NO END? There's always an end to everything. It's time. It's how we live. It's how I live. To think about the fact that I'll never ever cease or be gone when I'm "home" should excite me. AND it does! To an extent. There's no way I'd ever want to change where I'm going and for how long. I'm not going to hell, it's not an option for me. I'd much rather be in heaven forever than hell. But for some strange reason, I feel uneasy about being someplace...forEVER. 

Again, this is not something I think about so often. But ever since I can remember really grasping the concept that since I'm a Christian and I live the way I do and made life long decisions, I will live in eternity with my Lord and King, the thought of eternity really freaks me out. Maybe I'm the only one. Maybe I have some sort of rare phobia that hasn't even been discovered yet. But to be completely honest...I don't like the thought of eternity. I don't like the thought of living forever and ever and ever and ever...............etc. etc.........and there being no end. I know I cannot comprehend what heaven will be like, I really have no idea. I know it'll be something that would blow my brains to shreds if I could see it as a human. And I don't know if I'm fully getting across exactly how I feel about all of this, or what it is I'm truly afraid of, or not even afraid. Just uneasy with. I don't know. I've never really been able to say it all out myself, nor have I been able to figure out why I feel the way I do. I've never really asked anyone about this, so I don't know if I'm the only one or if I'm not. 

Please...do NOT misunderstand me. I'm not afraid of heaven, of going to a place SOOO much better than the one we're in right now. In all honestly, it's just the thought of eternity and time that never ends that makes me stop thinking of it all together.

So....any thoughts?